When I logged in today I thought I was missing a bunch of posts. For some reason I thought it was July and that I was missing half a Summer of posts. I guess that comes from being sleep deprived, sore from head to toe and in a total panic that something I said had been misconstrued. It was misconstrued. And I do not feel the compulsion to correct the interpretation. I do not even have the mental fortitude to perform the gymnastics required to explain that love is love and you can love lots of people on a variety of levels.
I do feel compelled to point out to everyone; file it away to use in your defense later when you find yourself similarly charged, love does not diminish anyone.
I know the concept of diminishing returns is foremost on our minds in these economic times. But that is the beauty of love. It is not economically based. Loving one person to the 4th degree does not prevent you from loving another to the Nth degree. This is true for everyone. And all you Aquarians out there know that is especially true of us. Those of us who have that magnetism that attracts people and pets have so much to dish out that it is sought. No biggie there. Getting the love vibe from an Aquarius as opposed to someone else is similar to the choice to bath in clean water versus muddy water. It's just water in differing degrees.
Of course there are people who don't get that, will get their undies all bunched up and be worried that they've lost status in your life. My mom was one of those exacting people who could not accept being less than first in someones estimation. and no matter where you ranked her yourself, the presence of other people in similar circumstance... my friends parents, for example, always made her feel like she came in 52 right behind Miss Puerto Rico. My sister could get jealous that way and my brother certainly felt like he had been replaced and diminished when I was part of His House in Marquette. But jealousy isn't out issue. It is the jealous person's issue. They have to deal with it.
We do not need to defend our heart's capacity. It does what it is supposed to do. It loves and encourages. It does not recognize stereotypes. It does not hold grudges. It keeps us going when the going gets tough and it sees the truth when others around us would lie. The heart does what it does independent of the head or ego. Unhealthy people make things complicated for their hearts.
My heart is uncomplicated.
It loves its brothers from past lives. It loves its sisters in this one. It loves everyone it went to school with, even with all the crap we put each other through, because they helped to make me the person that I am and still becoming. It loves the music and musicians who continue to teach it to reach for the furthest limits of love and keep giving. It loves its co-workers even when we aren't getting along. It loves its friends who are closer than family. It loves the people who frustrate the head and bruise the ego because it knows that those people are going through crap and do not mean most of the meanness that comes out.
My heart also loves me enough to know when to let the head cut damaging people loose. It loves me enough to know when to let those who can not be part of my life because their crap is more intense than mine lose to protect the love that is there. Love does not diminish. But it can be destroyed. Jealousy. Suspicion. Control. Constriction and the million little ways that a person can cut another prevent love from growing. It does not mature beyond a point. So a relationship won't grow further. When they don't grow they have to be left... like roses in an untended garden. The Gardener is gone so the plants do as they will without the love of the Gardener.
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