at a loss

There are times when I feel so worn down by all the crap in the world, the crap at work, the crap at home, the crap in my head, and the crap in my heart. One is supposed to think fuzzy bunny slipper happy thoughts all the time and they are not there. Not all the time. In fact they are increasingly becoming rarer and rarer,

How to be the light when you just want a little bit of dark to hide you from the rest of the world... it boggles my tired brain. There is so much butt hurt in the world and the first reaction from so many is to lash out.

I just want to withdraw. But the darkness will find me anyway.